Battle with MY STUPID SOFT VOICE!!!
There only ONE word to describe this week... "BUSY", "ABSOLUTELY BUSY"...Even when i skip some lesson..I'm still so busy.
Hurray! I manage to finish my design for YA new friend form. Thank God that I finish it within a day. I was worried about not coming up with a design by this coming fri, but I actually finished it off on Mon. Woohoo~!!!*grinz Im PROUD of my work!
Last Sunday, I went to vocal class again...haiz..same old prob...i'm just too SOFT!!!i dunno wat's wrong, Angie dunno what's wrong...I jus CANT project my voice~!!!
I was really discourage...really...this is not the 1st time that I am disappointed and demoralised about myself not being able to sing LOUD.
Angie asked me whether I will ask God again and see whether I really wan to serve as a worship vocalist and whether it's really an area for me...I knew it long time ago that some day someone will ask me abt it...it had been almost a yr..yet I'm still so SOFT...
I told Angie that I dont believe worship is not an area for me to work and serve...actually i felt like crying when Angie asked me... cos I knew I wasnt improving...I'm tired too~I wanted to give up so many times le. But I really want to serve God in this area...and I am always reassured again whenever I felt like giving up...
All the opportunities I have (ask to join the vocal class,lead CG worship,vocalist during YA Meeting and even a training vocalist of YA band now)..there's so many opportunities...jus so many...
Almost everytime after vocal class or after practising at James Hse, I actually feel really bad and lousy...jus beocs I cant sing out loud...I dun get it why it's so difficult for me. Am I jus born not to be able to sing loud??? Jus as others who are born to be tone deaf??!?!?
If one who is tone deaf is able to sing n even lead worship now...I really dun believe a person who cant sing loud, will remain soft forever and cant lead worship...
I feel so bad and felt like crying so many times abt it but I held back and tell myself that I can do it SOON...
I'm actually feeling tired...really sian diao abt this...
My mood was dampened after last sunday's vocal class~
I need Prayers..I need MIRACLES!!!
3 comments:
Hey projection of voice is not at all hard.
Try this exercise. Sing into a piece of paper and feel it vibrate.. Keep practising daily. It has to be practised daily and let your beautiful voice flow out. :)
I understand how disappointed it is to put in so much effort and not get anything in return. Do your best in what you believe. If you think it is an area you want to serve , do persevere on! Do take a step back and ask around on how you can improve! Do take care!!! Love ya!
thanks qing qing~:)
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