Insights

Today I pour everything out during CG sharing. I just felt so suppress for this week. Too many things are gg on....
exam stress...unhappiness I caused due my neglect of responsibilities...grandpa's health..

But what a relief to let it all out during CG today. wahhah seriously...i dunno how i manage to divert from today's sermon sharing to all those that I shared with my CG today.

Indeed I felt very stuck this week. It's as if I'm locked in a small room...struggling...

Probably like what Jan told me about the vision she had after CG prayed for me. She told me that she saw me in this BIG transparent bell. People outside the bell are knocking hard...causing all the noise and distraction. And these made me want to get out of the bell...but all I did was knocking hard on the bell from the inside. Of course, I didnt manage to get out of the bell and in fact, I created even more noise and distraction for myself till I become annoyed and frustrated. So Jan told me, by my own strength, I cant get out of this bell. This BIG bell can only be lifted up by our strong and mighty God. Is only I allow him to remove this bell from me. I will be out.

I should press on while believing that my Mighty God is able to help me. My main focus is not to strive and plan a plan for myself. Instead, my main task is to learn to surrender to God as He already has a plan for me.

Thank God for all these people around me especially when I'm lost...I'm blind...