AMAZING God

God is just so amazing~

Today, we had a guest speaker in church, Pastor Philip Huan. He spoke about having a good relationship with God. I have always desired to have a really good relationship with God but it's not easy~ I wish I can totally depend on Him, totally surrender myself to Him, but I have to confess that this is difficult. Even if I desire...it's still difficult.

God is really a loving God. Whenever I need Him especially when I'm at the peak, the high tide... He will surely come and comfort me. Today, I never expect myself to cry when I went down to the alter today...the whole atmosphere, the feelings inside me...I didnt feel that I will cry. It is deep down inside me that I'm suffocating with some things...moreover I forgot how to make myself cry...I need to RELEASE!

I hestitated to go down to the alter...but in the end, I did. At the very moment when I felt that jiamin was approaching me to pray for me...I broke down in tears~ eyes= opened tap. I was surprised that I was crying, moreover cried it all out...I was thinking how amazing God is...It is at the alter, right in front of Him, that I can be the real me...and I can release ALL my emotions.

God knew it ALL. He sees and knows what's going on in my life...what i'm gg through~ Thank God~ I released all my pain to the dearest Him today...such a relieve..even though some things might still remain unexplainable and the same...but at least, I know God is with me...my REFUGE~