Battle has JUST begin

Hmm~Does singing seems easy to pple?!?!?

Playing instruments to many are not easy to master...so is singing???

Keep having this feeling that pple feel singing is a much easier job than playing instruments...maybe it is easier..but probably not MUCH easier.

I want to sing and not SHOUT~

I'm trying really hard to sing louder~to improve...

Does it seems to others that people dont have to learn singing???

Who really know how much I struggle to master and use my own personal natural instrument??? Probably some~but MANY dont~

GOD KNOWS and He sent someone to help.

At a point of time when I was practising worship today at James hse, I felt like crying.(*Huixian doesnt cry easily) Firstly, I felt so bad that no one can hear me, they need to hear me as they play...if not they will be lost. BUT I cant~I tried!!!!!I wish I could SING MUCH LOUDER TOO~ but I cant!!! that's my loudest~I'm trying to push while remembering the things that Carol taught me. I'm tired too~my body...I need to use my muscles as I sing too~

I wanted to leave the music room as I nearly cried when I was singing.But I controlled. I really had the urge to and pass the mic to someone else to sing instead.
I dont feel tired to sing the same song again and again as I'm practising. I'm tired and disappointed cos again and again I'm told that I'm too soft and don't seem to have any improvement. I'm like an extra in the YA worship team.

I just felt that I am a spoilt instrument. And people find it ridiculous why this instrument is actually spoilt(too soft).

I foresee there's more barriers for me to overcome..the BATTLE has just begun.

I need PATIENCE, HUMILITY, TOLERATION, HARD WORK, DETERMINATION.

Even I feel lousy every single weekend, I'm gonna to make MY INSTRUMENT heard one day~