My greatest honour will always be to serve my Lord and King

It's not for my glory to desire to stand on the stage one day to worship God. (can be vocalists too)
Probably I was just getting impatience with what I seems to clearly hear from God in this area. Maybe I had interpreted wrongly...

It just worries me when I am not place in a single use as an instrument in worship. I start to wonder again if that is really what God wants me to do... Did I try too hard to testify what I heard from God?

Many forget my encounter...but the encounter is too amazing for me to forget...it reassured me so much to pull through the failures in this area. However, I guess it's time to ask God again if this is something He wants me to do...

I do not find stage is all about glamorous especially when it's a platform to serve God.
It's not just about standing on stage.
All I want is to be used in something that I am once assured that He wants me to do.
All I want is to play a part in worship...to minister to people through songs...to draw people (even unbelievers) closer to God through these songs...

I dont even think at this point of them I am ready. Looking at the commitment the worship team has. I guess...I am impatient...or probably worried at this point of time...as I don't see it coming in any way...Everything right now seem to be I planned rather than God planned unlike the past (eg. to continuing attend vocal class)

Starting to doubt..."God is this something that You want me to do? It's scary...cos it seems like I had interpreted wrongly..."

I am fine with my position now serving as a projectionist. I know it's where God place me at this point of them. Though I struggle, I know I am still serving God. And I want to serve Him.


It's hard to be expressed everything through words...